spiritbalm: (Default)
⚖️ anders ([personal profile] spiritbalm) wrote2025-02-08 03:45 pm
noirges: (ღ on a balcony in the summer air)

[personal profile] noirges 2025-02-19 03:45 am (UTC)(link)
[ ?

affection week is over for everyone else but not for yves. he'll reach out to take a hold of anders' free hand, just to hold onto ]


Not permitted...? Why?

[ he read some of the things that were posted on chipper but lacked proper context to fully understand ]
noirges: (ღ and i said romeo take me somewhere)

[personal profile] noirges 2025-02-19 04:23 am (UTC)(link)
[ ah.

there's been things here that have frustrated yves, amidst all the murder, but this earns a special spot among them. yves' own society doesn't prize love, considering how quickly the emotion is discarded upon becoming a reliver. but to outright disallow it? to punish it? to know that anders himself experienced such happiness only for it to disappear right from his fingers—

his brow furrows and he turns to face anders directly. he continues to hold onto his hand, but his other one finds his friend's shoulder ]


Someone else can choose you, even if you choose the mages. [ because he couldn't dream of asking anders not to, knowing what a difficult fight that is ] Someone can choose the mages with you, if they truly love you.

I won't say your life's work isn't important. Of course it is.

But to love and be loved is the exact type of spiteful act that should still be welcomed, especially if cruel people tell you otherwise.

You are not any less deserving of love just because you have more than one passion in your heart, my friend.
noirges: (ღ my empty arms)

[personal profile] noirges 2025-02-20 04:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ this doubt...

yves just smiles at this though, and very sincerely: ]


I'm glad you already know I love you. You're very easy to love.
noirges: (ღ how did i get so blind)

[personal profile] noirges 2025-02-21 04:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ a little laugh ]

I'm sorry to break the news, my friend... but I think the passion that you carry is a very wonderful thing, even if sometimes it feels so overwhelming that it's painful.
noirges: (ღ i was made for loving you)

[personal profile] noirges 2025-02-21 05:05 am (UTC)(link)
Do you think you have to be something different?

[ it's the one part of redemption that yves struggles with. the idea of being 'better'.

what does that even mean? ]
noirges: (puffy ღ acceptable)

week 1, friday

[personal profile] noirges 2025-02-21 08:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[ welcome to the cave

it currently looks like a field of pitch black lycoris flowers ]
noirges: (ღ to see you)

[personal profile] noirges 2025-02-21 08:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[ there are small pathways that anders might find through the flowers, not obvious from a distance but when you're in them it's clear that there are certain paths more well-trodden than others. like someone walked among them so very, very much

eventually the field gives way to a cliffside, and there's just a little shadowy ball of a person at the edge. there's no response, but just a bit of movement. ]
noirges: (ღ were open)

[personal profile] noirges 2025-02-21 09:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[ along the cliff's edge, anders will find him yves—or maybe it's kinder to say something yves-shaped.

because it's not quite yves, always prepared with a smile and a kind word. instead there's just a sad little mass of a young man, curled up into a ball and face pressed into his knees as he hugs them close. trying to become smaller, so small that maybe it'll make some of this ache disappear

he's trembling, so it doesn't seem to be working ]
noirges: (ღ wednesday)

[personal profile] noirges 2025-02-21 09:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he stiffens at the touch that he would so usually welcome, but at the voice—anders's voice—he eases. just a little bit. just enough to be meaningful.

he sniffs, some sad and pathetic little noise. ]


... I just... want him to be here.

[ does he want justice? does he want vengeance? he's never known how to wish for those things.

he's only greedy for the few friends in this life that he's lucky enough to get ]
noirges: (ღ and hold it tight)

[personal profile] noirges 2025-02-21 11:39 pm (UTC)(link)
[ . . . something of them in the world to recall them? if there is some memory? does that mean that he needs to be here in order for adolphe's memory to live on? or— ]

He's not the type to admit it... but Adolphe gets lonely too. Even if he's damaged...

Do you think I can't go to where he is?

[ he knows how insane it must sound, especially to those who want their redemption so badly. but yves has nothing to return to. he doesn't even know if he deserves heaven. ]
noirges: (ღ on a balcony in the summer air)

[personal profile] noirges 2025-02-22 02:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ well

if there's anything that can talk yves out of something reckless, it is appealing just enough to his sense of obligation to others

even if right now he sounds a bit disbelieving ]


... needed?
noirges: (ღ i've been waiting so long)

[personal profile] noirges 2025-02-22 02:41 am (UTC)(link)
[ us....

yves's brow furrows in thought briefly, but eventually he will just exhale in one big sigh, closing his eyes. ]


... if people need me, I'll be here. For as long as I can.

[ even if he wants to be somewhere else - wherever adolphe's gone. he will try to be patient, even if his heart is so full of sorrow. ]
noirges: (ღ i was made for loving you)

week 1, saturday

[personal profile] noirges 2025-02-23 02:13 am (UTC)(link)
[ hiiii we're going to the lighthouse. yves is coming and he has a little basket on his arm ]

Anders...? Can I sit with you?

Page 3 of 12