So that's something. I suppose it's hard to say the difference between resisting your own impulses and resisting his.
Still. There are certainly worse things to attempt to seize control of someone's mind than him. But it's hard for me to imagine having a friendly relationship with something that could and occasionally did override my wishes.
Maybe it's more that... I wonder if he can change.
I don't believe he is static, or unchanging. The Fade is not a static or unchanging place, and Spirits are borne of that nature.
... And it's not as if he hasn't changed before. Most Spirits want to know more about life, our world. When I first met him, he was inhabiting the corpse of a Grey Warden. Kristoff. He wanted to learn all he could about Kristoff's life, he cared about his past. His regrets. The things he could do to see justice done for the wrongs done to him in his life.
Then maybe... He cares about Kirkwall and the mages because you care, but, if he cares about your life, your regrets, then he could allow you to change. To want different things for yourself.
It's not just me anymore. It hasn't been for a very long time. Whoever Anders was, alone, that man is dead. You have never known him, and I barely did.
[ if it's about wanting things for himself, then justice is a part of that too, isn't it? ]
Everyone wants to think I am fighting him, but we've never disagreed on much of anything.
I'm just... trying to get you to agree that you don't necessarily have to return to the place where they tortured you and killed you. If your answer is that you're going to anyway because you agree on everything, then at least don't use him as an excuse.
[he is the one who was saying justice is the reason he has to go back! annoying man.]
I'm not going back! I already said that I wouldn't.
[ he is just saying that it will be a checkmark in an irredeemable column when he is judged by the maker for daring to not going back to where he was tortured and killed.
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Still. There are certainly worse things to attempt to seize control of someone's mind than him. But it's hard for me to imagine having a friendly relationship with something that could and occasionally did override my wishes.
Maybe it's more that... I wonder if he can change.
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... And it's not as if he hasn't changed before. Most Spirits want to know more about life, our world. When I first met him, he was inhabiting the corpse of a Grey Warden. Kristoff. He wanted to learn all he could about Kristoff's life, he cared about his past. His regrets. The things he could do to see justice done for the wrongs done to him in his life.
And he changed in Kirkwall as well.
[ for the worse! ]
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[ if it's about wanting things for himself, then justice is a part of that too, isn't it? ]
Everyone wants to think I am fighting him, but we've never disagreed on much of anything.
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[he is the one who was saying justice is the reason he has to go back! annoying man.]
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[ he is just saying that it will be a checkmark in an irredeemable column when he is judged by the maker for daring to not going back to where he was tortured and killed.
he is a very fucking annoying man. ]
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...Well. Good.
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Good!