I'm not sure it's easier at all, but it isn't easy to be the one left standing.
[phew.]
I'm fairly calm about it now, but at the time, I didn't even remember having ever fought before. [so it was pretty bad to have to suddenly take out all of her friends.] Is that something that actually happened to you, or just... nonsense?
Those exact events? Not so much to me. It sounds a great deal like what the Warden-Commander might have experienced, however - if a bit disjointed. I was gone by the time the Circle fell, but she left to fight at Ostagar and returned shortly after. It was during the Blight.
[ he realizes this is probably a bunch of nonsense to shadowheart. so. ]
I was Harrowed, I've seen friends turn into demons, and I certainly was not taught to fight - they'd much prefer you have no idea how to defend yourself against a Templar or anything else swinging a sword at you. They want you to feel helpless in the real world. And the Ferelden Circle fell to demons and was almost annuled. But that particular series of events happened after I was already gone.
Similar to mine, maybe. A group of Sharrans sent on a mission to secure an artefact is something that happened, but it was a different artefact. When I was asked to kill the Nightsong, I was with my companions from the Nautiloid, and they aren't exactly supporters of Lady Shar.
[which made a big difference. if she was fighting against a group of fellow sharrans she would have wanted to act first. whereas she was with a group of people who generally supported her and cared about her but did not want to see her kill this woman.]
You stayed and fought with us, in this one. [But clearly should not have.]
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I know.
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[wiping her face.]
I do feel a little less envious of Fidelio.
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It's definitely easier to just be the insane one.
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[phew.]
I'm fairly calm about it now, but at the time, I didn't even remember having ever fought before. [so it was pretty bad to have to suddenly take out all of her friends.] Is that something that actually happened to you, or just... nonsense?
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Those exact events? Not so much to me. It sounds a great deal like what the Warden-Commander might have experienced, however - if a bit disjointed. I was gone by the time the Circle fell, but she left to fight at Ostagar and returned shortly after. It was during the Blight.
[ he realizes this is probably a bunch of nonsense to shadowheart. so. ]
I was Harrowed, I've seen friends turn into demons, and I certainly was not taught to fight - they'd much prefer you have no idea how to defend yourself against a Templar or anything else swinging a sword at you. They want you to feel helpless in the real world. And the Ferelden Circle fell to demons and was almost annuled. But that particular series of events happened after I was already gone.
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[which made a big difference. if she was fighting against a group of fellow sharrans she would have wanted to act first. whereas she was with a group of people who generally supported her and cared about her but did not want to see her kill this woman.]
You stayed and fought with us, in this one. [But clearly should not have.]
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[ a joke, mostly. but I was selfish, then. ]
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[she has also very often been quite selfish.]
If the real you wouldn't have died for some near strangers, fair enough.