[ oooohhhh wow he is so surprised by this but he's happy nonetheless! truly radiating a sense of joy as he pets the cat and like this is the best thing that's happened in the past 24 hours

but, ]

Samuel gave us this chance with her life—or afterlife. I don't think I should benefit from it in any way.

I do have a use in mind if we make it to the end of all this without needing it, so it won't go to waste... but I don't think I should take it as a reward.

[ the idea of taking something for himself when he already is mad at himself for doing a necessary thing would've been impossible to reconcile ]