... I am sorry, if I can't say it easily. [ the l-word.] It just comes with-- everything that surrounds it.
[ and for the most part, at least until here, that has mostly been pain. a lifetime of being unable to say something as simple as i love you for fear of that emotion being something wielded against you, as leverage for pain. ]
yves is a little surprised for a moment, trying to figure out what anders means but—context clues do help. and in the end, his expression melts so happily that it'd be impossible to guess that anders never got around to saying the actual word.
yves will simply just give him a hug now. it is necessary. ]
... I believe you.
And that means far more than whether or not it's something I can hear, as long as it's something I feel.
So I hope you'll also believe me anyway when I do say I love you.
[ get hugged, idiod.... and yves will just cuddle in because he's so affectionate. truly even the emotionshare that comes in is soooo loving and sweet ]
Good.
I only ever wish for your happiness, Anders. Please do everything you can to reach it, okay? Or else I'll just have to cry.
I never wanted to assume your feelings on the matter…
But he was pretty torn up in the Healing Center. If we’re approaching the end, I didn’t want him to have any regrets about things he never said, or things that you deserved to hear.
And same for you… I’m sorry if it felt like I was meddling.
[ HE ALWAYS WAS HIS ENTIRE GAME EXISTENCE IS MEDDLING ]
If he felt that badly he could have answered any of the questions I sent him or assured me in any way when I needed it the most.
[ snappish. and then he realizes that was a little bitter and cools down, because he doesn't want to be angry with him. he still cares, deeply. it's just ... ]
yves just squeezes anders a little bit more in the hug ]
... sorry. Seems like I heard about things a little late. [ but the only way otherwise would've happened is if he arrived in the graveyard earlier so,, ]
No, it's alright. I think speaking to you likely helped. [ and the talk was genuinely good. ] And of course I forgive him. I would forgive him anything.
[ even executing him. even telling anders that he loves him, but not enough to spare him. ]
But I do not think we are good for one another in that way.
[ yves just nods in understanding then—forgiveness can exist alongside bitterness alongside care. there's so many layers and he's never pretended to understand all of them, but.... ]
I'm glad you came to that conclusion and the choice was your own.
I do hope you find happiness, Anders. You deserve love and care just as much, if not more than, anyone else.
[ cute... yves is unfortunately just soooo happy and enamored about it. disgusting. but they also just talked about anders' breakup so he's not going to break out into a romantic soliloquy or anything ]
Thanks. Me too.
Next it's just figuring out where we're going from here.
[ he just laughs and nods... the only thing that can get yves to abandon his horrible home country is the fact that he'd rather have a better life for adolphe ]
We do. I think I'm pretty adaptable... but I'm trying to think of where Adolphe would like to go.
It's more difficult than I thought it'd be to find a relatively peaceful place that also lets you keep your swords.
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Hm? Anders?
[ is he in trouble? (why is his first instinct always that he's in trouble) ]
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... I am sorry, if I can't say it easily. [ the l-word.] It just comes with-- everything that surrounds it.
[ and for the most part, at least until here, that has mostly been pain. a lifetime of being unable to say something as simple as i love you for fear of that emotion being something wielded against you, as leverage for pain. ]
But I do. Feel it.
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oh.
yves is a little surprised for a moment, trying to figure out what anders means but—context clues do help. and in the end, his expression melts so happily that it'd be impossible to guess that anders never got around to saying the actual word.
yves will simply just give him a hug now. it is necessary. ]
... I believe you.
And that means far more than whether or not it's something I can hear, as long as it's something I feel.
So I hope you'll also believe me anyway when I do say I love you.
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I believe you.
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Good.
I only ever wish for your happiness, Anders. Please do everything you can to reach it, okay? Or else I'll just have to cry.
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[ patting him gently on the back. ]
I heard you were coaching Hawke?
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I never wanted to assume your feelings on the matter…
But he was pretty torn up in the Healing Center. If we’re approaching the end, I didn’t want him to have any regrets about things he never said, or things that you deserved to hear.
And same for you… I’m sorry if it felt like I was meddling.
[ HE ALWAYS WAS HIS ENTIRE GAME EXISTENCE IS MEDDLING ]
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[ snappish. and then he realizes that was a little bitter and cools down, because he doesn't want to be angry with him. he still cares, deeply. it's just ... ]
It's-- It's fine. We talked.
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yves just squeezes anders a little bit more in the hug ]
... sorry. Seems like I heard about things a little late. [ but the only way otherwise would've happened is if he arrived in the graveyard earlier so,, ]
... it's okay if you don't forgive him.
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No, it's alright. I think speaking to you likely helped. [ and the talk was genuinely good. ] And of course I forgive him. I would forgive him anything.
[ even executing him. even telling anders that he loves him, but not enough to spare him. ]
But I do not think we are good for one another in that way.
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I'm glad you came to that conclusion and the choice was your own.
I do hope you find happiness, Anders. You deserve love and care just as much, if not more than, anyone else.
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[ mage who is going to be okay dot jpeg ]
What about you?
[ i want. deets. ]
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yves just smiles a little bit, raising a brow ]
What about me...? Do I seem like I have something to share...?
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[ HE ALWAYS SEEMS LIKE HE HAS SOMETHING TO SHARE. ]
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yves laughs, startled ]
I cornered Adolphe into admitting he loves me? Is that worth sharing?
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[ he should!!!!! ]
I'm happy you're together again.
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Thanks. Me too.
Next it's just figuring out where we're going from here.
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anyway on a personal suggestion, perhaps they could go anywhere but orphanage fire island. ]
You have choices.
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We do. I think I'm pretty adaptable... but I'm trying to think of where Adolphe would like to go.
It's more difficult than I thought it'd be to find a relatively peaceful place that also lets you keep your swords.