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[ don't worry about it
but it's funny - because even though yves has talked about the circumstances of his death with people already, anders asks the right one question. one where he thinks some of his own frustration and emotion can shine through. what does it mean to face a friend in your last moments? ]
... I think in the end, we agreed that it didn't come down to right or wrong. I didn't want it to be about that - what people call "good or evil". I understood why he did what he did, even if a lot of people died for it.
[ even if people will think yves is crazy or insane for still having sympathy and love for someone who committed such atrocities ]
But... if he kept going, he would've killed more people that I love—for the sake of what he loved.
So it was just... whose conviction was stronger. And I chose certain death for us both, instead of letting either of us walk.
but it's funny - because even though yves has talked about the circumstances of his death with people already, anders asks the right one question. one where he thinks some of his own frustration and emotion can shine through. what does it mean to face a friend in your last moments? ]
... I think in the end, we agreed that it didn't come down to right or wrong. I didn't want it to be about that - what people call "good or evil". I understood why he did what he did, even if a lot of people died for it.
[ even if people will think yves is crazy or insane for still having sympathy and love for someone who committed such atrocities ]
But... if he kept going, he would've killed more people that I love—for the sake of what he loved.
So it was just... whose conviction was stronger. And I chose certain death for us both, instead of letting either of us walk.
[ wow. okay. well the longer anders listens to this, the worse his expression gets, slouching further. ]
I ...
[ he has to go silent for a long moment. ]
I'm sure your friend understood.
[ so guess which side of this he identifies with. ]
I ...
[ he has to go silent for a long moment. ]
I'm sure your friend understood.
[ so guess which side of this he identifies with. ]
[ this got so intense so quickly but yves managed to hit all the right buttons, and it's been ....... a very long day.
he can't remember the last time anyone hugged him, and it's kind of breaking him to think about that. leaning into it, pathetically. ]
I'm sorry.
he can't remember the last time anyone hugged him, and it's kind of breaking him to think about that. leaning into it, pathetically. ]
I'm sorry.
[ happy week zero. anders can be found wandering around the new area, outside mostly - but he's wandered into the arcade and is ... getting very annoyed at the games as he presses random buttons and can’t quite figure out what it’s supposed to do. maybe he’s just mad he’s losing. ]
I think this thing is cursed ...
I think this thing is cursed ...
[ losing game sound ]
Andraste's hairy asshole!
Andraste's hairy asshole!
Forget it …
[ sinking to the floor in front of the machine. the melancholia. ]
I, erm, wanted to apologize for the other day. I got a bit too heavy.
[ it will happen again. ]
[ sinking to the floor in front of the machine. the melancholia. ]
I, erm, wanted to apologize for the other day. I got a bit too heavy.
[ it will happen again. ]
[ help
okay
sinks down on the floor next to anders and gently leans against him... affection week even tho they already hugged ]
I'm going to be more offended if you apologize, Anders...
I liked getting to know you, even if it was heavy. I'd like to help carry your sorrows, no matter their weight.
okay
sinks down on the floor next to anders and gently leans against him... affection week even tho they already hugged ]
I'm going to be more offended if you apologize, Anders...
I liked getting to know you, even if it was heavy. I'd like to help carry your sorrows, no matter their weight.
It ... happens like that. The moods. I can't always control it.
[ he is like. AWARE of it at least. ]
It's not always so bad, but it has been lately.
[ he is like. AWARE of it at least. ]
It's not always so bad, but it has been lately.
[ well its a little bit his fault, but also partially not. it's complicated. ]
Things have-- had been getting worse, in Kirkwall. I was running out of ways to control ... anything at all. No one was listening anymore, not that they ever were.
Things have-- had been getting worse, in Kirkwall. I was running out of ways to control ... anything at all. No one was listening anymore, not that they ever were.
[ THIS CAN ALSO BE TUESDAY IF YOUR LOVE ARROWS WEAR OFF IDK
well everyone's getting The Afternoon i'm sorry someone said that it's yves' holiday and it's true so we must all celebrate. he's carrying along a heart balloon and a bouquet of flowers, looking delighted when he sees anders!! ]
Anders! Look at this place, isn't it fun?
[ HE LOVES THIS HOLIDAY, OTOME FUCK THAT HE IS. he'll offer out the wholeass bouquet - full of hydrangeas ]
Would you like some flowers to share with Shadowheart? Please take it as a gift of my congratulations again.
well everyone's getting The Afternoon i'm sorry someone said that it's yves' holiday and it's true so we must all celebrate. he's carrying along a heart balloon and a bouquet of flowers, looking delighted when he sees anders!! ]
Anders! Look at this place, isn't it fun?
[ HE LOVES THIS HOLIDAY, OTOME FUCK THAT HE IS. he'll offer out the wholeass bouquet - full of hydrangeas ]
Would you like some flowers to share with Shadowheart? Please take it as a gift of my congratulations again.
[ his love only lasted one sweet, sweet hour, and then he promptly got into a fight over another love arrow, got his feelings hurt and stomped off, and is now here. in the midst of the love holiday.
taking the flowers, a little forlornly. ]
We aren't-- Nevermind. I'll bring them.
taking the flowers, a little forlornly. ]
We aren't-- Nevermind. I'll bring them.
[ HELP MEEEEE ANDERS yves looks confused??? and worried?? oh no who hurt his blorbo "anders is 37 years old" yves' blorbo
he'll place a hand at his back and tilt his head ]
Wanna talk about it...? [ thinks about him turning green about clawke ] It seems like there's a lot on your mind.
he'll place a hand at his back and tilt his head ]
Wanna talk about it...? [ thinks about him turning green about clawke ] It seems like there's a lot on your mind.
[ its fine being a nasty little jealous asshole is, in fact, canon behavior for this full grown man approaching 40. famously a big part of why he got cancelled (being mean to beautiful fenris) ]
Sure. Don’t eat strange things around here without checking if they will poison your mind first and make you humiliate yourself on Chipper.
Sure. Don’t eat strange things around here without checking if they will poison your mind first and make you humiliate yourself on Chipper.
[ nat was telling me about anders and his controversy and i was like wow i don't know anything about that bc he and yves traumabonded instantly ]
Poison your—oh...
[ looking sad... and patting anders on the shoulder ]
... I'm sorry it tampered with your mind like that. That's the worst emotion of them all to have manipulated. It makes sense to be upset.
Poison your—oh...
[ looking sad... and patting anders on the shoulder ]
... I'm sorry it tampered with your mind like that. That's the worst emotion of them all to have manipulated. It makes sense to be upset.
[ sorry for being insane do you still think im a malewife or whatever ]
It’s fine. It’s for the best. It would not have worked in any case.
It’s fine. It’s for the best. It would not have worked in any case.
[ yes :)
but yves' frown intensifies then before he shakes his head ]
Maybe so. But that doesn't mean that love won't come for you. And when it does, I hope it is gentle and everything that you could've dreamed of.
Please don't take this as some indicator about what you're deserving of... because it's not.
but yves' frown intensifies then before he shakes his head ]
Maybe so. But that doesn't mean that love won't come for you. And when it does, I hope it is gentle and everything that you could've dreamed of.
Please don't take this as some indicator about what you're deserving of... because it's not.
[ honestly, genuinely curious: ]
What is it that makes love so important to you?
What is it that makes love so important to you?
I was fortunate enough to have been loved once in my life, and... I want to be loved again.
[ he's a little hesitant to admit it, but anders has been so open that it doesn't occur to yves to shy away now. ]
Because I think... it can be very lonely without it. Or without anyone who would acknowledge your existence at all.
So even if true love never comes for me... I don't want anyone to feel like they cannot be loved, like I did.
[ he's a little hesitant to admit it, but anders has been so open that it doesn't occur to yves to shy away now. ]
Because I think... it can be very lonely without it. Or without anyone who would acknowledge your existence at all.
So even if true love never comes for me... I don't want anyone to feel like they cannot be loved, like I did.
Mm.
[ he does just listen to all of that, wrapping an arm over his chest and squeezing his fingers against his arm. ]
I don't know any mage that has dared to fall in love. It is not permitted in the Circle.
[ he does just listen to all of that, wrapping an arm over his chest and squeezing his fingers against his arm. ]
I don't know any mage that has dared to fall in love. It is not permitted in the Circle.
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