[ he has NO IDEA what to think of that, but it is a worrying thought, actually. the idea of the Multiverse is not a popular story trope in Thedas, so that's all ... so very new and strange. ]
I don't know what to make of that. It's-- You can't change the course of history. That's not a thing magic can or should do.
yves isn't affronted by the shocked laugh, though he does look concerned when the explanation comes. he squeezes anders' shoulder gently, given how tense he is but he hopes it's a little reassuring. ]
It's tough, right? To say the least. Unsure if you should even call the other person a friend, but it doesn't erase the fondness you have in your heart for them. For everything you've been through.
but it's funny - because even though yves has talked about the circumstances of his death with people already, anders asks the right one question. one where he thinks some of his own frustration and emotion can shine through. what does it mean to face a friend in your last moments? ]
... I think in the end, we agreed that it didn't come down to right or wrong. I didn't want it to be about that - what people call "good or evil". I understood why he did what he did, even if a lot of people died for it.
[ even if people will think yves is crazy or insane for still having sympathy and love for someone who committed such atrocities ]
But... if he kept going, he would've killed more people that I love—for the sake of what he loved.
So it was just... whose conviction was stronger. And I chose certain death for us both, instead of letting either of us walk.
yves is just going to pull him in for a hug? with all the slouching, they might actually be closer to the same height - but he doesn't seem too worried about that. it's just...
it feels like the action can express more than any words could. ]
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but he won't ask questions - and instead shakes his head ]
No, it's... more confusing than that. But... I outlived them both, for a while.
I don't know why we all arrived here at the same time but... it's strange, to be happy for a reunion while also being confused about everything else.
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[ that actually clears some things up. ]
Hawke claims I died four years ago. I suppose he would know.
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[ softly, in a little sense of awe ]
Do... your memories align up to that point?
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[ OMINOUS thought. ]
Do yours not?
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... it depends. [ a small wince ] Sorry, I don't mean to be cryptic, but there's just some of it that isn't mine to tell.
But even if I outlived them both, one of them died in a way that's different from what I know.
We know the same people but... things didn't happen the same way.
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[ he has NO IDEA what to think of that, but it is a worrying thought, actually. the idea of the Multiverse is not a popular story trope in Thedas, so that's all ... so very new and strange. ]
I don't know what to make of that. It's-- You can't change the course of history. That's not a thing magic can or should do.
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[ a little mumble, confused ]
We don't have magic in my island... at least, as far as I know.
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[ consider the dead thing. ]
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[ a sigh ]
Well, I'm glad you're at least not here alone. Is Hawke a friend of yours?
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He used to be. I would not blame him if he has changed his mind, however. His friendship isn't something I deserve. He really wasn't supposed to die.
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but yves just looks over, curious and a little worried. his hand will find anders's shoulder automatically, a light and gentle touch ]
... are you scared to ask him?
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No. I just don't know what I want the answer to be. It would be better if he was truly done with me.
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Better for who?
It sounds a bit lonesome, if you ask me.
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You trust them?
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[ without hesitation ]
... but I also just came from a situation where I had to kill a friend, and that friend also killed me.
So I know it can be a mixed bag with friends.
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GODMAKER.well he gets it, he has the worst friends imaginable and they all kind of hate each other too so that's normal.
anders is uncouth so there's a second where theres like. a half-bark of a shocked laugh. so yeah. you get this lore drop early for that banger: ]
Hawke was my executioner, so believe me, I understand.
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yves isn't affronted by the shocked laugh, though he does look concerned when the explanation comes. he squeezes anders' shoulder gently, given how tense he is but he hopes it's a little reassuring. ]
It's tough, right? To say the least. Unsure if you should even call the other person a friend, but it doesn't erase the fondness you have in your heart for them. For everything you've been through.
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but this statement sums it up so succinctly that it seems as if yves gets it. so he's not sorry he said it. ]
Yes.
Were they right to do it? This friend of yours.
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but it's funny - because even though yves has talked about the circumstances of his death with people already, anders asks the right one question. one where he thinks some of his own frustration and emotion can shine through. what does it mean to face a friend in your last moments? ]
... I think in the end, we agreed that it didn't come down to right or wrong. I didn't want it to be about that - what people call "good or evil". I understood why he did what he did, even if a lot of people died for it.
[ even if people will think yves is crazy or insane for still having sympathy and love for someone who committed such atrocities ]
But... if he kept going, he would've killed more people that I love—for the sake of what he loved.
So it was just... whose conviction was stronger. And I chose certain death for us both, instead of letting either of us walk.
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I ...
[ he has to go silent for a long moment. ]
I'm sure your friend understood.
[ so guess which side of this he identifies with. ]
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well
yves is just going to pull him in for a hug? with all the slouching, they might actually be closer to the same height - but he doesn't seem too worried about that. it's just...
it feels like the action can express more than any words could. ]
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he can't remember the last time anyone hugged him, and it's kind of breaking him to think about that. leaning into it, pathetically. ]
I'm sorry.
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but well, yves does give good hugs. warm, secure, and so very full of tender affection. he rubs anders's back and won't pull away first. ]
It's okay. I'm sorry, too.