[ he's free to look! there's gauze on yves's face, taped on where all the blood had been earlier. it's on both underneath his mask and on his other cheek entirely.
everything else is unfortunately hidden by clothes and he still moves like he's not injured at all. when he takes anders's arm though, he's cold. so cold. and shivering. ]
[ and yves offers this too readily as someone who finds himself always dying for others, rushing to their rescue before his brain can process what his body is doing
I still have the item that can heal. I understand not wanting to use it before Saturday, in case we are required to check wounds. But I feel like a monster, withholding it any longer. I would like to use it on one of you - you can decide amongst yourselves who it will be if you like.
... I've already gotten an offer. [ because people are kind, and he loves them so much. ] I've personally turned it down for now. The guilt of knowing that some of their injuries happened at my hand... I couldn't take it. And while I know it's cause for concern in some areas... I don't feel the pain they do, and it bothers me more to know that they have to endure that alongside everything else.
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... 'm cold. [ a little sad, pathetic to admit ] I wanted to sit by the heat in the spring.
[ he knows better than to go in but
his fingers are trembling faintly ]
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Alright. Let's go then.
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everything else is unfortunately hidden by clothes and he still moves like he's not injured at all. when he takes anders's arm though, he's cold. so cold. and shivering. ]
Thanks. Sorry to make you worry.
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You don't need to apologize. Are you alright?
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it's a smart move because yves is ultimately a deeply accommodating person, and he will shift to match anders's pace instead ]
... maybe?
[ he's not confident ]
I'm physically hurt, I know that... and emotionally, I...
[ how does he even begin to describe what he went through ]
... I don't want to be left behind.
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squeezing the arm he has a hold of slightly tighter. ]
You won't be.
[ he knows these thursday things are probably worse emotionally than they are physically - wounds heal. thoughts linger. ]
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[ and yves offers this too readily as someone who finds himself always dying for others, rushing to their rescue before his brain can process what his body is doing
which makes it all the more frustrating here ]
But I couldn't. I was the only one who couldn't.
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... right.
... they're all badly hurt, though. Please look after them too, Anders.
[ yves knows he will but... the fussing is there ]
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I know.
I still have the item that can heal. I understand not wanting to use it before Saturday, in case we are required to check wounds. But I feel like a monster, withholding it any longer. I would like to use it on one of you - you can decide amongst yourselves who it will be if you like.
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... I've already gotten an offer. [ because people are kind, and he loves them so much. ] I've personally turned it down for now. The guilt of knowing that some of their injuries happened at my hand... I couldn't take it. And while I know it's cause for concern in some areas... I don't feel the pain they do, and it bothers me more to know that they have to endure that alongside everything else.
So... please ask them.
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[ it doesn't work like that. pain only begets pain. ]
I know you don't feel it, but it's still there. You're still mortal.
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[ unfortunately he does. he did still die. ]
... even so, I'm sorry Anders. Please endure my selfishness. I can manage a little bit better than the others, I think.